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[03 Mar 2006|12:34pm] |
darby broke up with me last wednesday
i could give a lesser fuck now
i cried one day and that was it
i have a really big crush on this guy i can't even have
rarrrr
omggg
meow.
<3
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[18 Jan 2006|07:21pm] |
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me & erik are going out again as of 4PM today.
you have no idea how happy i am.
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[21 Dec 2005|09:19pm] |
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today, i went to the mall with erik, i pretty much suck at life because i kept saying stupid shit and i dunno i just ruin everything. anyways, we kissed alot :-) hehehe. &i got lovins.
but no we are not together..
i want to be...
but its just him..
damnit, fuckity fuck fuck.
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[12 Dec 2005|06:58pm] |
man. everything has been so hard without him...
i have been crying nonstop these past few days.
I don't know what to do. He doesn't want me....
at all. and I want him. more than anything <3..
and things just arent working out how i want...
i fucking hate my life so bad... i dont unders-
tand how someone could give up someone else for
a reason like that... i guess life has its rea-
sons.. but I love him. too much. and it isn't -
fair. i want to die. i am nothing without him..
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[25 Nov 2005|01:30pm] |
Erik broke up with me.
15 months... are gone.
i am trying to stay strong.
because i realized he is not going to take me back.
and it hurts.
i have food poisoning.
so i have been throwing up like a mother fucker for the past day.
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| school is good |
[16 Nov 2005|07:35pm] |
i've made some good friends :D i'm changin alot kinda in a goodway but the stereotypical teenage expiremental thing. i don't fuckin care anymore cuz everyone treats me like shit &don't fuckin pay attention to me.
i'm lovin ROTC like its my favorite class... w00ts.
i love erik. one year, two months, 6 days.
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[18 Sep 2005|04:00pm] |
to update about
so i am updating
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| shyea <3 |
[11 Sep 2005|09:05pm] |
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Hmmm.
I Love Darby <3
...:)
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| things could be worse |
[31 Aug 2005|05:08pm] |
I have been having a really bad time at school.
just watch the news or something, its got hurricane katrina all over.
that shit is IMPORTANT.
our government needs to fucking do something for all those homeless people. For all of the people who are in those shelters and walking around in diseased water. For all of the people in that super dome that flooded, which now has no electricity or plumbing.
I feel really sorry for those people down there.
I just want to stand up for them &make the fuckin' government do something. But I'm young + the gvt won't do shit for anybody. can't fuckin keep your country safe, please. do something.
the gas prices are fuckin' ridiculous. Why can't they lower the prices? back to the low prices like back in the days.. those were the good days. everything was peachy.
florida hasn't even recovered from their hurricane, and the fuckin' government still hasn't done anything about it..
just to say it, OUR GOVERNMENT SUCKS.
and i know its okay to say this shit because I live here.
But they need to do something. quick.
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[29 Aug 2005|09:31pm] |
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I was right.. a few posts ago, i was talkin bout my mom &how she drinks alot &how i think she was having a so called "affair".
I was right. She does drink alot, she does have a boyfriend, and she is kicking my step dad out soon.
Life is tough but you gotta deal with it ;)
tmac i havent seen you in the hall? lol. *tears* lol.
sorry whats happening. that shit sucks.
<3
school is alright i guess. i dont like homework, and most of my teachers are alright. except for my earth science &american cit teachers... yuck.
hahhaha i love erik <333 sooooo much
&YAY for new camera in a few days..
with love darlings
even though you never comment. 
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[28 Aug 2005|01:31pm] |
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I'm getting a new camera soon.
scizzore.
in about 5 days.
ordered it yesterday.
I'm happy.
becuase i was sad.
goddamn.
erik is coming over today.
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| mmm. i love you erik. |
[25 Aug 2005|06:29am] |
Yesterday was Erik &I's one year anniversary.
He got me this pretty ass ring(i know it was expensive too because he had to keep going to get payments on it, &i don't like how he spoils me, but i should be happy that he loves me.) &I got him a cookie cake &this dog tag with a picture of me on it that says "love you always" but yea I'm ghetto and poor so i couldn't get him much.
My bus is gonna get over my dairy queen in like 15 min so i'mma go.
mel.
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[22 Aug 2005|09:31pm] |
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My camera died. I mean like, it doesn't work anymore. I don't know why.
its oh so very sad. I am sad.
sad face.
I want a new camera anyways *teehee*. a DSLR.
something like this.
or
but i'm not that spoiled &I know my mom will never even help me pay for the damn thing. so yea i'm just better off with a smaller one.
yea thats hot.
Wednesday is Erik &I's one year anniversary. :-) yay. i buy him large cookie.
melissa.
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[19 Aug 2005|01:28pm] |
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six am.
(Ick I have a tummy ache..
I don't wanna goto school.)
Edit 12pm ;; School wasn't that bad. I just don't really know anybody in my classes. I seen 6 people I know from T.E. Culbertson. Well it wasn't bad besides the fact that I was nervous to death. I got sick before I went to my bus stop, I dropped my books twice, and put my locker lock thingy on backwards.
&Shit. I have a locker on the same floor/corridor as Bri. I have earth science with her too, yipee. I'm soooo excited. *sarcasssm* (just so you know we're enemys).
Well.. these are the people i know i have classes with.
1. tech - danny b(from TEC), danny z(from family), violet(from xanga), yanamari(from IE).
2. art - nobody. lmao. there was only 3 people in the class including me.
3. earth science - sue(i have known her since, forever; TEC), brianna(ewwww), tatianna(from TEC).
4a. Advisory - tony(from regular hufford)
4b. Ivan(IE), Vicky(IE), Sam(reg. hufford), Megan S(IE), Tatianna(TEC), Jaquie(t.e.c.).
5. ROTC - Tony P(My since kindergarden friend, TEC).
6. English - Violet(xanga), Tyler Neilson(eww my third grade crush  lol yea from TEC)
7. American Cit - Candi(family friend).
8. Algebra - Jamal(or jermiah(from TEC)), Thea(IE).
Well I know I won't be seeing my baby a whole lot. I only seen him twice for 2 seconds, one - when we left the auditorium i kissed him hehe, two - before i saw him go into one of his classes. That was it. I miss him.
I dont know whats going on now, I should eat or something, and maybe call Erik to talk to him about tomorrow.
Oh. There was only three people on the bus. including me. Anthony and some other kid. Anthony was like, all over me, hes annoying, and he wouldnt get out of my seat and wouldnt stop squashing me.
countdowns, if you wanna add one just comment with the date.
0 more days till school. shpit.
0 more days till kayla's birthday.
3 more days till elicia &johnny 1 yr woot! lol
4 more days till matti's birthday.
5 more days till me &my husbands 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY!! FK YA!!! i love erik. so much.
7 more days till matthew sheehan's birthday.
11 more days till liz the pimptress's birthday.
2 months and 11 days till halloween.
2 months and 16 days lol till lloyd can watch rated R movies. (AKA his birthday.)
3 months and 5 days till thanksgiving.
4 months and 5 days till magi's birthday.
4 months and 6 days till christmas.
4 months and 15 days till jamie's birthday.
6 months and 21 days till my birthday.
6 months and 20 days till my kitty vicious's birthday.
7 months and 24 days till emilys birthday.
7 months and 25 days till erik's birthday.
9 months and 8 days till adam's birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAYLAA<3
its a nonstop disco, bet you its nabisco, bet you didn't know.
melissa.
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| WHERETHEFUCKDIDSUMMERGO? |
[16 Aug 2005|09:52am] |
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Ugh i know things could be worse but yea..
yea.
My mom is a pain in the ass lately. I swear sometimes lately, she's just been on my nerves so much. Like the other day, she made me goto my dads house, and wouldn't even tell me why! and when she picked me up from my dad's house, the car smelled like beer or cologne(not perfume).  saturday she drove me &darby &georges &dawn home fucking DRUNK. how nice. All she does is yell at me anymore too! &its just bothering me. I think shes going through metopause. but shes only 41? &also even though she's been mean, shes like ALL over me, trying to kiss me all the time, with her beer smelling lips, its scary. I don't think she realizes that I'm fourteen. Maybe she doesn't want me to grow up. But still, she tries to kiss me when Darby is around, which is really embarassing... I don't think she realizes how embarassing she is. UGH im just so frustrated. I dont even like it when she tries to kiss me anytime. at all. because its sick.
I think she is having an affair, even though she &her 'husband' don't even act all that much of a couple. She made an email address for "privacy" so she could talk to her "friend" who she never tells me the name of. she's always going out to meet him.
I don't know what to think about this. I'm just so confused and scared. 
I dunno.
Its like she doesn't care anymore.
Well if she doesn't I shouldn't.
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[15 Aug 2005|02:10pm] |
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My Hair is Black Cherry. I got it dyed the other day.
New layout. Do you like?
Bleh, SCHOOL STARTS FRIDAY!!!
crap. lol.
comments pleasE?
I took that last night.
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[05 Aug 2005|02:35pm] |
blaaaaaaaaahhhh no one comments *cry cry*
2 Weeks &Five days till Erik &I's one year anniversary.
I'm supposed to go over his house some damn time, like tomorrow, but he hasnt replyed to my text messages for the last 2 days. *cry* I like potatoes.
1. What is your current ringtone?: Dont Worry Be Happy. hahahah its just the MIDI tho cuz i cant have the gangsta gangsta ringtones. only the BG music.
2. What is your current wallpaper?: Ahhh a crappy picture of the sea...
3. Do you own a picture phone?: No, but i can get a cam for my phone
4. If so, what was the last picture you took?: n/a
5. Go to your text message inbox and type what the 10th message from the top say?: "what you up to?"-liz from chicago(she used to live in joliet)
6. How many contacts do you have on your phone?: 50. LMFAO. i even have a payphone number on there from that beach club...
7. Go to your missed calls. Who was the last missed call from?: Brian...
8. Who was the last person you spoke to on your cell phone?: some guy that dialed the wrong number. tell me how you dial the wrong number on a cell phone?
9.What service do you have?: T-Mobile.
10. At this very moment, how many bars do you have for your service/battery?: 4 bars service, and i say about 90% battery cuz my phone doesnt have bars. lol.
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